FORTUNA
8.16.19
we summoned shadows of that night back and this time
you had no choice but to see the truth
and as i went to hell, the devil asked me if it was worth it
no knowing how to answer
i made myself of all the love you no longer wanted
making love was never about
you me and a bed
we made love whenever we held hands
so congratulations
you took me down
now you have made everything that is sad, relevant
maybe you re right
maybe i don’t know you
there is cruelty in you that is foreign
it visits drunkenly taking its place at my table
slapping me with coldness and apathy
puts me in a box with guilt ribbons and locks it with disregard
i have no room to be angry here
but what if i told you
cold eyes are burned into my memory
chasing me away
to a different room
a different home
a different lover
one day you realize there are people you will never see again
at least not in the same way.
it was your kindness that killed the beast inside
when i fell in love with you – once upon a time.