GARFIELD
4.20.20
i still don’t know what i was afraid off
keys are never lost
when you are your own lock keeper
splitting the bed
with nothing but my own spine
i alone dream this room
making life a place of my choosing
less imprisoned in the illusion of control
the subtlety of codependency
can be felt in the most mundane actions
giving your power away – so someone else can make your coffee
and no it s not daunting for things to change so quickly
when ive been living with the uncertainty of her
tsunamis for the past year
it is a comfort to sleep without earthquakes
its no secrete
what happens to you is far less important
than what you make it.
nothing lasts forever which is exactly why everything matters
so i choose emotional disarmament
practice compassion and kindness
equally important
defusing panic, and confusion
things filling hearts with fights which cut us open
instead of opening us up
i don’t think it’s fruitful for me
or the people around me
to be whipped into a state of agitation
forgiveness comes naturally
now that ive learned to re-read old chapters
without turning them to skeletons