2.12.17
FOX AND HOUND
your sent’s unfamiliar
old poplars and new twine
the one i tie you with
kissing my feet
you don’t know what my soul
has stepped on.
is this truth, or a mask?
it’s instinctive, that we know.
with you – the role bows at our play
we’re mastermind and charm
power couple – let’s build bridges,
and watch them burn down.
Muse
JACK-LIEN
2.6.17
don’t look at me
doe-eyed and tender
like the shine behind the glimmer isn’t anything
but naivety.
i told you – i won’t lie to you
i will tell you, all that is well and good
drawing wishes in the sand
we could be pebbles
it would be like that
i hold you humbly
whisper untainted truths in your ear
we consume each other
we are cursed with each other’s company
complacency and routine
that’s all we’d know
until it isn’t
one day ripping the sheep’s shirt from my
snarl.
that shit’s heavy
soaked wool and dodging bullets
you deserve better than these
cold-calls and coffee dates cut short.
an avalanche of conscience
you’ve come in tumbling.
BOOT(S)TRAPS
2.6.17
catching up to co-unt
monte-cristo gives me a penny
for every thought
id well-wished have
so we stretch
thinly breaking into lanterns
i’m blanket pour out of stability
too much
too many
too heavy
i’m not ready for
the in-pour out put of expectation.
there’s not enough time in the world
to hold my wishes
in sync.
FORTUNA
2.5.17
slurring slingshots my way
i know red flags when i see them
better than anyone
02.02.17
FORTUNA
pebble valley
i’ve been here before
before you i mean,
i’m learning to allow
to sink and breath
if you only knew, the state i was in
before you caught me
belly up and tender
if i told you
no one has ever seen my full
would you run
or would you hold me –
embrace the honey
and never forget where the sting comes from
BOOT(S)TRAPS
how dare you
i bet, you’ve never heard me scream
a little too close to home
have you any idea what we can do
don’t rest easy child
this world is out for you
alternate-facts don’t deceive the blind
and we’re roaring
i may be a big fish in a small pond
but you don’t know
the ripple i can have
when you’ve threatened my home
SUGARDADDY
there’s calmness in the air
the kind that lets you know
it’s okay to jump off the highest mountain
and swim the deepest oceans
a kind of life-vest
urging you to go further
deeper
a kind of challenge you can accept
at the risk of
taking on another,
and another.
comfortability reminding you
that you can always be
uncomfortable
POLY
1.28.17
lets dance within rhythm
i’ll steal the dance floor and charge this crowd
i have a feeling
you’ve never seen fire
welcome to the
movement
the pulse
the rhythm of what
we do.
FORTUNA
1.27.17
ever wanted something so bad
your teeth ached?
do you see me – my surroundings
special awareness
tell me you don’t see
the treasure in your hands.
modest little mouse i may be
i know non-the-less
the world holds me in a pedestal
succeeding in all trials
dinning with the masters
while having breakfast with the rascals.
im uncharted waters
land to be discovered
which i offer at your palm
you
above everyone else
the hungry, the special, the spectrum, the fox, the giving, the linen,
i offer this to you and only you
if only given the chance
i could pour into kindness, fall into safety, give into love
if only given the chance
i would hold you – above
the crowds, above the suitors, the beggars, the admirers
tell me you don’t see the treasure
that you may just pass
tell me – please
that my destiny
isn’t just for the masses.
JACK-LIEN
lenin sheets
no i have not washed them, i won’t lie to you
like i won’t lie when i say
you stumble in my kitchen when i retreat inside to pour this all out.
i won’t lie, when i say i know
some day you will read these words
twice over
looking for the truth behind the cryptic
you won’t find the answer
there’s years of history in here
the more you know
the more you know.
i will give you this:
the weight of your gasp in my holly
drives pressure within my spine
bending your way
some kind of bow you’ve strung
now im aimed in your direction
releasing the set-backs that never held me worthy.
i was foolish.
i know this.
but you…. you ache for my hands early holding you together
when youre falling apart in the throws of my mouth
i can taste ecstasy in your gasp
moaning me
over and over again.
did i manifest your presence? did you hear me calling?
I’ve been waiting for some kind of sweep me off my feet
dearest, you may just have me flying.
POLY
bringing the pull down slowly
water under the bridge
but my conscience
my conscience my conscience my conscience is
wet cloth and cinder blocks
sinking into guilt.
we’ve reached a comfort level
tell me, is this what friendship feels like?
see, i’ve only ever
been kin to wild
the unruly
the deviant of our kind.
tell me, please, i’ve found a sanctuary
in your brotherhood.
1.23.16
FORTUNA
last straw
i’ve taxed the last of my coins
thrown in a well
and hit rock bottom
there’s no water here
no river flowing for my stream
simply
disappointment
i’ve come open chest and artery flowing
revealed the child pose behind the
downward dog
perhaps the lesson in this
is to learn your own value
learn
when to walk away.
now:
leave the sick to the illness
my place is elsewhere.
im done
fighting for affections that have never compromised in my direction.
1.20.17
JACK-LIEN
i couldn’t smell you behind ourr smoke
we taste like, crowd dancers and blue moons.
shark,
it’s not often i feel the rug slip from my feet.
talk about flames under our seats
youve sparked more than an interest
fracture within your cheekbones
close enough to something i
we have known before
there are traces of memories where your jawline meets
mine
i could trace my finger across
every last rib
of spine
the kind of shock that makes you read the same line twice
the kind of shock that makes you read the same line twice
we could make this entire building
shake
collapse with our moans.
1.19.17
JACK-LIEN
soft spoken dandy-lad
you’ve come in crashing side glances
looking like the world was made for courting
what do you feel, i wonder
when i play great dodge
all your questions
clearly answered
by a powerful miss.
you make sense.
better fit a character in the story i’ve already written
but the lines are all wrong
beautiful
handsome and fitting you
are kite-runner ready
to plunge into my arms.
perhaps you’ll stand a chance
if i can turn off
the pulse beating for the fortune
that’s rejected my affection.
1.18.17
BOOT(S)TRAPS
movement and drawback
there’s a shift in the waves
young thieves stitching at the coutures
making line works for the new incoming
there’s nothing gum-draw about frivolity
there’s only hold on and keep there.
perhaps our steps aren’t loud enough
perhaps our purpose isn’t clear
but we are here
and it is our purpose
to hold space,
equally and amicably.
don’t you dare,
disrupt my sleep.
i will come armed
forceful and ready to claw and rake my sanctuary.
FORTUNA
loosing the hold
I’m giving you my heart
it’s running out of juice
here’s a toast
to lovers lust
i’d sing to a lover’s ending
but the ecstasy is wearing off.
11.16.17
BOOT(S)TRAPS
the balance flipped on its belly
allowing past leeches to suck me dry
once more
i will not be subject
to my own self mutilation.
SPECTRUM
your an avalanche of open
keeping me strung along by some weave we’ve
not yet found the ends too
do you see the knots in my belly?
driving me ancient too soon,
i’m begging for mercy
pleading your kindness
a soft goodbye.
deep breath, lover
my cavity’s been corroded again,
you’re forgiveness slaps the back of my knees
when you tell me we’re photosynthesis
and i ask which of us is plant
and which of us assailant
“we’ve already created the impossible, is it far fetched to think we can both keep breathing?”
i don’t know, what part of this breaks my heart more.
why do some things feel like nothing
while others feel like everything?