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3.29.17
BOOT(S)TRAPS
tug-o-war
mindfulness open a window
and watching crows
watch themselves
im butterfly dipped in honey
i’m in love with honey-moons
but the light is too much
too bright
rudely abrasive don’t wake me up
let me sleep in these arms a little longer.

there’s stories missing from between these lines
scratch-felt refined
polished and punctuated
thrown in some pile of dirt
to be dusted again by some stomping and mashing
death hurts in absences
could you imagine missing your heartbeat?
films of saliva and tear ducts are taken for granted too often

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3.14.17
FOOLSGOLD
there’s a limp in your step
there’s a creek in my neck don’t worry
we’re all slightly crooked
watching tides rise and fall
our intentions curling into
wave me hello
you’re name sighs out of my mouth
clenching my jaw
grinding my teeth
there’s a gap tooth
for your breath me out.
darling dear,
you’re crossing borders
but i’ve built a wall higher than your spine
across my bed
split desire
obedience to lust
or instinct
or perhaps nature.
perhaps we’ll stop watching each other someday
from across the room
patient and petulant
until then, your name does not matter
you are

no

i will MAKE you nothing
no one of importance
fools gold to a greedy hand
no muse to any man
just another category.

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3.7.17
FORTUNA
finished the game
before i played the hand
now
bad instincts and obedience to lust
all tarnished in knots we tie within our species
coming all fool
come in our forest
all push me back in
to myself
hands behind my back i’m pinned
and needles don’t sting nearly as bad as they used
trying on your warnings just for skin
shaving off fur from my mussel
too sudden to react
we’re going with he motion of the
train we pushed off track
free-lancing our affections
we’ve got no shields left.

she molds love like an effect of mercury
i’m silk smoke
trying to understand what hats are poison
and which are mad mad lost our minds
there’s no pause to this soundtrack
no repeat skip breath
just responsive urges
“butterflies dipped in honey”
what sticky messy sweetness
but she holds my wrists above my head
and there’s no other disposition
to my sanity
than her breath on neck.
perhaps this is our catalyst
perhaps it takes an avalanche
of pin me down
tie me down
to tame the beast.
can you hear our sides purr?
never have my polarities
been so agreeable.
now look what you’ve done,
i’m on my knees for you.

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FORTUNA
3.5.17
i’m good at war
i’ve fought tooth nail and cedar at the  ready
shouting at the most stubborn mountain
yes, i’ve even moved stone
turned it to gold
watched it melt between my fingers
they call me Minos
now you’re golden plum ripe and
delicious drip dripping though my lipsbetween pants moans
and whispered sweet goodnes
i love the way you love
deeply.
calling my own bluff
sitting on my hands
what can become of my world
when we have to ask permission for our own pleasure?
what will become of the beast
when starved and chained
no gentle lead here
is exile
no exhale for anyone
shock ready and primed for now
capricious desires
obediently following your pleasures
allow me dear perhaps
a better, a newer
some blinders to allow
these feral teeth
to bite another’s dinner.

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03.03.17
MUTT
i know now why they called you an angel
adoration and longing
your eyes never lie to me
there’s only purity in your instinct
i wonder what you think of me
mother to none but perhaps you
re guarding my every breath
knowing the smell of cigaret’s as the
homeland i once cradled in.
i slept in wool and twine too
tangled like the collar-red around your neck
its a challenge, effort and ease never came
balanced in our natures.
without you, i would know no limit
it sounds wrong
but we are earth bound for a reason.
my love, i know the days have been anguish and uncertainty
now i promise to do right,
by the peace in our pace
let your love grow,
into peace and security –
know i will never let bad lady come again
and if she does;
bear no fangs, hold your growls,
it’s my turn to be the feral.
you rest,
easy in your comfort bed
or mine.
we’re not so different you see
and i thank you daily for the loyalty
love, and friendship that is your presence in my life.

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3.1.17
BOOT(S)TRAPS
everything that makes you wanna start over
and not look back,
we tired of the water here when we
were handed a measuring cup only half a quarter there
promising to fill up fill me up
i’m tired of watching stillness.
lets put it this way
when i say i was dismembered
i mean my insides were torn out
the beast feeding on my every perhaps
i ran the other direction leaving her satisfied
but in Komodo there’s simply not enough fauna to sustain

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2.27.17
JACK-LIEN
you radiant avalanche of senses
you overflow of pleasure
tigers eyes breathes by my neck
and i shiver at your hurricane.
the ecstasy of feral finding feral
we’re both mad here
tasting gold dripping into my tongue tip-
ping the scale
we’re magnetic.
you’ve given me the gift of anonymity
i give you in return exposure
fully my crimes now dimmed in the
curve of your spine
you have me – all to yourself
for as long as you want me
damn the follies looking down on
our rest easy, we’ve found harmony
guiltless and free
i’m diving deeper into your collarbone.
i’m not afraid anymore.

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2.25.17
JACK-LIEN
even fruits say our name with a punch in the gut
i’m calling in the winter
before spring even touches our hands.
i’ll be leaving tomorrow,
unmasked,
untarnished
untainted –
breath me out oak
and breath in melancholic memory of you untainted lover,
remember me fondly
think go me kindly
think of long nights chocolate-covered bodies
valentines picnincs
birthday wishes and we came true
for each other.
think of your lover as the only
one holding your naivety,
when you think of me,
let the only questions in your eyes be
why it can’t be any longer.
don’t go looking for answers,
you’ll find nothing but skeletons here
still bitting at my ankles
coffins ive tried to lay down to rest
still lay their lovers to sleep.
call me ungrateful,
all the while,
you offer your bed, to no one but me.

i’m sorry, i’m so so sorry
had i known you were right around the corner
i would have waited.

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BOOT(S)TRAPS
2.24.16
here here
to new starts
to taking the past
and making it
our chalice –
to figuring out
this fucking dashboard someday.

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FORTUNA
2.17-18.17
lets not forget the reason we’re here eh?
a hint of salt and harshness
i’m swimming in affection
FOX once called me a fire
that burned everything it touched
lover, you are glacier at the edge of my map
give me a chance to explore the uncharted
soft snow blankets – there’s too much to see here
between fluff-huff colored bed
there’s a prism of infinite inside this
white.
i’m a fickle hound you see,
or have been – sniffing up the wrong dresses for as long as i can remember
refusing to lick the bone for fear
of finishing the marrow
now paws in air
i’ve found loyalty –
these mad dogs mad dogs laddie
i’m all mad laz
dazed in serenity and capacity.
there’s always room for redemption
some men spend years ridding the earth to extinction
would you look at them now
creating stars from the finger paints of your last battle.
sweet little Scorpion,
you’ve brought nothing but death
to my furies
stinging them slowly with sweetness and love,
i’m breaking every cell open
releasing the old ribs from past lovers
and reminding that reluctant Eve that
pomegranates are still preferable
to some side-show “apple of my eye.”
thank you.